swimming jitters

tomorrow's the big day!!!! grabe, can't get over it...im nervous for tomorrow..why? first, training days were not enough..I know i know, im the team captain and i was supposed to be the one scheduling the trainings. But hey, i can't help it..medyo minalas kami ngayun because of the weather. A lot of our training days were cancelled because of the bad weather. As the team captain, i am placed with a heavy burden of making sure the team can defend the championship title and at the same time my team mates' safety. which will i choose? honestly, everytime i cancel trainings a lot of pros and cons goes through my head...but still my team mates' safety should go first. To my team mates who are reading this right now, first, i would like to apologize kung nakulangan kayo sa trainings. I am so sorry, pero sana maintindihan niyo...as much as i love the psych organization, love ko din kayo as much and i'm not about to risk your safety over a defending title. To my organizarion mates, sana maintindihan niyo yung lugar ko...mahirap pumili, but i have to. second: I have my monthlies!!!! sobrang malas talaga!!!! i know monthilies are supposedly "suppose" to stop when you get in the water, but hey...that doesn't make the monthlies go away! sometimes kahit nasa water ka may lumalabas pa din.

To My Team Mates:
Guys, we can do this...its normal na kabahan tayo and all those negative thoughts, but we can push those aside and I believe we can still defend our title. Guys, especially to the newcomers, nakita ko kayo ever since nagsimula ang trainings. I can say na you guys improved a lot and that alone makes me proud of you guys. Manalo matalo, it wouldn't change the fact that I'm still proud of you guys. Madami naging pasaway and madaming hardships akong dinaanan as the team captain pero I can say that those hardships are well worth it. I am truly happy that I spent a lot of time with you guys kahit training hours lang. I got to know the newcomers and the old comers more deeply.

Ally: alam ko na most of the hardship on this competition will be on your part kasi madami kang lalanguyin and nag cheering practice ka pa..in addition, may sakit ka pa...ally, you can do this...wag ka mag alala dahil coach is there to put pressure on us... :)) love you ally

baby skyie: you can do this. I know how it feels na this is your first time to compete for the organization. Don't you worry my baby skyie, kapag nasa tubig ka, i will cheer for you. Malaki ang improvement mo skyie and im so happy with those improvements. Iam proud of you my baby skyie...love you skyie... :D

Pau: at some point we started on the wrong side of the bed. But i can assure you that i did not hold that incident against you. I believe in second chances and I gave you one. Seriously? natuwa ako sayo. After that incident, you shaped up. I am happy that I gave you that second chance. You didn't let me down my dear. I am proud of you. You always look on the positive side of every training days. Sana lagi kang ganyan. Love you Pau

Nory: hai ang puso ko...next time ha..you know what i'm talking about. First, sorry kung hindi mo na feel that I could be trusted with that vital information. Pero sana sinabi mo agad. Anyways, Nory, I saw a big improvement sayo. Although you still need to be trainied a little bit, pero with a situation like yours, your efforts to be with us in defending the title and you being with us every training days makes me happy and proud. basta Nory, whatever happens sa pool, i'm still here for you kahit na kelangan pa kitang saluhin sa pool..promise I'll still do that kahit competition... :) Love you Nory

Mel: My right hand...hahahaha! thank you for re-joining the team... :D im soooo happy that you get to be with us on this last swimming days of well...both of our college life (kasi graduating na tayo) thank you for giving me the oppurtunity to get to know you and to ba closer to you. Honestly, kung hindi ako siguro nagjoin ng swim team nung second year I wouldn't get the chance to know you better and to be close to you. Thank you for being there and helping me out whenever you can. Love you Mel.

To the whole swim team: I love you guys. You made this last swim in my college years a truly memorable one. I've once made a promise na kapag ako naging team captain all of you will be taken care of, walang maleleft out and all of you will be a part of my life. Sana with the first two promises I have made before I was able to keep those promises. Basta guys, lagi nyong tatandaan during the competition kung kelangan ko kayo saluhin sa pool, i won't hestitate to jump after you. Ganyan ko kayo ka-love...Thank you guys for making my training days bearable and worth it. Sorry kung minsan nag cacancel ako ng trainings pero i do hope maintindihan niyo na your safety comes first, pangalawa ang championship sa akin. Sorry din if ever may nasaktan ako sainyo, i promise you hindi ko intention yun. Love you guys! I'm proud of you!!!!