baby story

I've kept the first part of my pregnancy a big secret to many people. Again, I apologize for keeping it but I'm hoping that many of you would understand the reason why.

Finding out: I was suppose to have my monthly period Dec 16. It was already Dec. 25 and I still don't have my period. So Panda went to the drug store to buy me those tests. To be quite honest, I was pretty calm about it because I was pretty sure that my monthly cycle just went berserk because of the stress I'm dealing with at school. So I did the test and to my surprise, its positive!!! Hyperventilated inside the bathroom because I couldn't believe it. I asked well, if memory serves it was more like demanded Panda to buy me another because I claimed that the test is defective. So I did the test again, and viola! its still positive...anu naman laban ko sa 2 p.t na nagsabi positive diba???

Deciding: One thing I am very proud of is that I accepted my situation whole heartedly. Abortion never came across my mind. I would never do anything to hurt my baby. I talked to Panda, and I told him I want to keep the baby. I was the one who decided to keep the baby a secret because I'm still in school. Dangerous as it was, I decided to continue my schooling. Half of the semester to go and then graduate na ako so why waste it?

First Trimester Experience: whoever said that being pregnant is easy, you're wrong! so totally wrong. Having morning sickness...rather whole day sickness was never easy. Having the feeling of wanting to throw up everytime I smell pasta, meat that is being cooked, raw garlic, raw onion, sauteed garlic and onions are the worst. I am one of the number one fans of pasta, but during my first tri, I am one of the number one haters of pasta. I don't like eating meat, chicken i can stand but not beef or sometimes pork. I can eat three small pieces but beyond that no more. I don't eat okras, but because of pregnancy, i eat them like they are one of the best things in the world. I prefer eating veggies. In school, I can eat pork sinigang everyday since its the only food that I can stand.

I also experienced panic. There was one night that I had spotting. According to the internet spotting is usually okay, but if it is blood...that's a big oh no! yes, it was blood spotting...I panicked because it was in the middle of the night, Panda's nowhere near me and my parents doesn't know about me being pregnant. So how? I went to bed worrying about my baby. The next day, I had my check up. Thank goodness my baby was okay. According to the OB it was threatened abortion. She asked what I was doing in life so I told her I'm a graduating student and I have no intentions of discontinuing my studies...so she made me do the "aggressive method" which is to take duvadilan (pangpakapit) 3x a day for 1 week. Not pretty I tell you. I had pimples sprouting and I wasn't able to do anything about it since pimple medicine is a big no no...

Second Trimester Experience

Fourth Month: I can feel my baby moving! hahahaha! its kicking na nga e. The baby is super active during night time. No more morning sickness!! I can eat pasta, but I still prefer veggies over meat. I still don't like the smell of garlic and onions and meat that is being cooked. I also experienced a very bad headache...and to my dismay, I can't even drink biogesic...so I had to do the pahid of menthol method. Pregnancy really makes you do crazy things. I am one of those people who hated the feeling of applying menthol on my body and then here i am putting this chinese menthol thing on my forehead. I love ripe mangoes. I am saddened by the news that I can no longer enjoy eating candies and chocolates (oh horror!!!) candies, I can live without, but chocolates??? grrr...it was one of my cravings and I'm not allowed to eat it thanks to my ancestral family (mother side) for the genes of diabetes.

I'm already counting the days of my next check up because hopefully, we would be able to see the gender of the baby na. I've been looking out for baby names. Recently, I have downloaded a list of all the things I'll be needing to prepare before my baby comes...ANG DAMI! and I haven't even started buying any!!! hai, panic mode nanaman ako nyan later...but I guess minimal panic mode because I enjoy shopping. I just hope my feet wouldn't let me down.